She took a breath

Five years ago I was prophesied over and was told me voice was anointed. At 17 years old I didn’t realize what exactly that meant but I knew God wanted to use me for something special. For the first time I felt that God had a huge plan for my life and I had to really get my life together and serve Him whole heartedly. From there I let a lot of stuff go and really started my adventure with God.

About 2 years ago I went on my first missions trip to Mexico and had been contemplating joining an internship at my church. When we got home I realized God had called me to ministry and decided to talk to the director but in that week he was let go. I didn’t understand what God was doing. The director then move to OKC to do an internship with a church out there and I was offered to do that program. I was ready to move then I asked God about it and He said to me so clearly, “you need to stay here, in Lancaster, where it is not comfortable for you. I have great things planned for you here.” I was angry. I didn’t want to stay where it sucked. I didn’t like it here but I had to obey God. Through that time I got close to my now life friend and God brought a new youth pastor and intern director to our church.

Almost a year ago the intern director came to me and told me that God had put me on her heart and asked me to be praying about a position. She asked me if I wanted to join the staff of Resonate School of Life. Immediately I thought that I wasn’t qualified but I went and prayed about it. Before I could finish my question God said to me, “just do it”. Questions left and I confidently told her that I would join staff. Within the next few months I started teaching and discipling the girls in the internship.

During that time I had told my mom that I was thinking of being in ministry full time. Like any parent she was super concerned. I was in school to be a teacher in the education world not the ministry world. On top of it my mom had seen how ugly the ministry world could get and had seen people let go and she didn’t want that for me. We got in so many arguments over the next few months. It definitely put a strain on our relationship because I value what she thinks and says of me so much. My desire was to honor her but I also knew what God wanted me to do. My mom didn’t understand fully and neither did my family, but I did what God asked of me.

Haven’t I commanded you: be strong and courageous? Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” (Joshua 1:9 HCSB)

I’ve started a new year with new interns and am now a 1st year teacher and work with academics. These past two weeks have been amazing and I know God has truly called me to this life. Earlier this week a verse was brought up that I’ve been holding on to:
Therefore, humble yourselves under God’s power so that he may raise you up in the last day. (1 Peter 5:6 CEB)

I say all of this to bring you to an amazing moment that happened today. I recently have lost all of my “life plans” God has changed so much in my life that I have no idea what my future looks like exactly and I am okay with that; but I also have had moments of regret for taking different risks in the past month.
As my mom and I were driving back from the gym, we started talking about how my sister in law is starting the teaching program which is great! My mom then says to me, “you know Monique, the teaching program is not for you” stunned I asked her why she says that and she said, “I just think you are doing exactly what you are supposed to at the church”

Ahhhh I seriously could hear the hallelujah chorus. Even though I still obeyed God without hearing her say that, God knew that I needed to hear that she supports me.

He is such a good Daddy. I just have to continue to lean on Him as He guides me down this path of life.

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